"Give      me 
                 some   head," 
                 the      dude 
                 sternly, 
                 grimly   said.

 I   wanted to  hold  him in  my   arms,  to  
 feel   the weight  of him on  top of me. I 
 wanted  to  scratch love  marks  down  his 
 back and to  watch him  enjoy  being alive.

                 But  down  I 
                 went     and 
                 gave     him 
                 only what he 
                 asked   for.  
                 Both   lost.